06 March 2012

Taking a difficult step

Sometimes you need to stop, have a good look at yourself, and make a change. Last summer when I suddenly went quiet over here on my beloved blog, I had finally admitted to being depressed and started treatment. Now, don’t get me wrong, it hasn’t been easy, it’s been pretty hard actually, but nothing worthwhile is easy, I’m quite sure this is not quite the expression.

Since last summer, good things just keep coming into my life, I don’t necessarily feel a whole load better but good stuff is just coming my way, maybe because I’m less afraid. I am back to my beloved dancing, teaching contemporary dance workshops to children with special needs, classes at my daughter’s school and ballet classes too. I have started taking a circus class focusing on aerial arts, which is one of the most fun things I have ever done. A friend and I were talking yesterday about focusing on the positive things in life and how when you are positive, good things just seem to happen. My current goal is to try to focus and appreciate the good parts of every aspect of my life and to see what happens. So every time I’m thinking of something that makes me sad or frustrated, I’m going to try to look at it from another angle, and force myself to think of the good.

Another change in my life is that we are no longer just 2 kids, a cat and a load of fish but actually 2 kids, a cat, a load of fish and a puppy (and a husband), so that’s fun…more on her later...